Not Enough Credit

As advocates and supporters of those diagnosed with Apraxia of Speech, we seem to be well-versed in identifying an issue, admitting something is wrong, and finding a solution.

Those parents reading this practically do it every day. Those diagnosed also do this every day.

Even though this journey may be exhausting, emotionally trying, and draining. We see an issue, do our best to fix it, and go about our day.

Despite our tenacity, when was the last time you sincerely told yourself "Good Job?"

And I do mean a sincere, 'good job.'

There is a difference between complimenting yourself as such for your strength and tenacity, versus breathing a sigh of relief that this struggle is partly over.

I say this, because I can definitely improve on telling myself 'Good Job.'

I was checking-in for Line Dancing Lessons and I had to say my full name, "Alyson Taylor."

Despite the simple name, I absolutely get anxiety with that '-or' sound at the end of Taylor.

But this time-I said it successfully, the woman wrote it down, and we both went about our evening.

Now, saying one's last name is expected-especially as an adult. I know I should've felt personal happiness or at least a feeling of small accomplishment. After all, that's what you're supposed to feel after you've performed something well.

I felt relief. Just relieved that I did it. And I wish I would've felt a little more than that.

I realize that I can't possibly be the only one, it's so easy to get consumed on this journey that we often mistake a sigh of relief with feeling accomplished.

I suppose taking a small step back, or just a minute, to tell ourselves 'Good Job,' may also help our confidence levels through this journey.