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Apraxia, Blackjack, and Decisions

None of us decide to have Apraxia. We don't decide to purposefully be speech-delayed, school-delayed, or physically-delayed.

You didn't get to decide to have a child with Apraxia either.

No one decided to go down this path.

Nor would anyone voluntarily want to.

And as much as we wish we could have decided, we simply just cannot. We can't click buttons and customize a child; what they'll be like, their strengths, etc.

If that were the case, we all would choose to have or even be the perfect human being. As you guys know, that's just not feasible.

Despite this lack of choice in the beginning, we do have one other capability. We can decide how to act, react, cope, and treat.

I was watching a Facebook video and this gentleman, diagnosed with cancer, said something interesting. He said, and I am paraphrasing, that life is a card game. We can't choose our deck, but we must learn how to play them.

With that, I thought of two things:

One, that I love a good game of Bla…
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Reading & Writing with Apraxia

How does one learn, or even find the motivation to learn, how to read and write when they cannot even speak their respective language?

Seriously, it sounds impossible. It feels impossible, but I am here to assure each and every one of you it CAN be done.
I struggled initially in school, especially the Elementary School days, in essentially every subject taught. 
However, with reading and writing it very slowly became one of my academic strengths.
On top of the school teachings and homework, I had a reading and writing tutor. We would always have those academic workbooks and we would do extra-studying and extra-practicing of the material. Even during summer vacations! The horror, I tell you!
On a total side-note: Academic work for those with Apraxia always entails doing "extra work" to only be half as good. I am sure those reading this can agree. If you don't, well tell that to the bags permanently under my eyeballs.
Anyways, it was always extra work to learn how to read,…

Identity Crisis

You have the reminiscent effects of a speech disorder, but for some crazy reason everyone around you is asking where your accent comes from.

When you're a kid, how confusing is that?

Is this speech of mine an accent, or is it a disorder? What the heck is a disorder anyways?

If everyone says it sounds like an accent, it must be an accent right? That's cool, right?

I was in Elementary School and verbal, but attending Speech Therapy often to practice articulation and those dreaded R-sounds.

However, one day on the playground, a couple kids asked me where I was from. This was the very first experience I recall being asked about my accent.

I told them I was from California, but I suppose that answer wasn't acceptable.

"No," they continued, "Where are you really from? You have an accent..."

I responded, "I'm from California."

Except, I pronounced it more like, 'Califuhnia.'

Even an adult supervisor nearby heard and started engaging in th…

When Failure Is A Person's Success: Overcoming Apraxia & Life

Why are we so afraid of failure? Not of our own failure, but of our children's? I don't have a child, of course we all know this, but I sometimes find myself more worried about my younger sister's  failures than I am my own.

    We are so afraid of other people failing because we know how much it sucks. Each and every one of us has failed miserably at some point in our lives, no matter how huge or how small. We recognize the struggle, the frustration and the overall feeling of disappointment.
   I'll be honest, I've failed in numerous areas. I technically never 'passed' speech therapy and I've failed countless exams: A spelling test [I got 19 wrong out of 20], an Economics Exam I actually studied for [I got 0/100], and my AP Spanish Exam in High School. I felt like a failure when I crashed my brand new car against a wall [Whoops]. I failed miserably at a Swim Meet too.

    Now before you think it's "just swimming," you must understand,…

If There's One Thing I Could Change

Despite the years of speech therapy and the frustration that comes with the fact I still cannot order a #4 Combo at Taco Bell (I can't say '4,' seriously, I say "The Mexican Pizza Combo" every single time! Anyways, I digress)-I would not change my Apraxia.

I would not want to get rid of it. I would hate to lose my accent. I would hate to have missed the journey I went on.
I would have missed the late nights of homework between speech therapy and school. I would have missed out on learning that you can still fail miserably, even if you try your best.
I would have missed out on learning life lessons far beyond my years. 
I would not change my Apraxia. 
But, if I could, I would change how others look at it.
See, Apraxia is not a 'bad thing.' Annoying, yes, and even irritating-but Apraxia on its own is treatable.
The issues though with the Apraxia Journey always seems to come down to those around us.
It's the annoying family members that say, "He'…

Apraxia & Foreign Languages

How does one, with Apraxia or its reminiscent effects, learn a foreign language?

Everyone has their own opinions and experiences with this. Some despise forcing kids to learn a language that they lack interest in. Some hate that their child already struggles with English, why would we dump ANOTHER language on them?

This is a controversy I hope to address, at least by sharing my personal journey with it. Before though, let me disclose that my experience is my own. It is not indicative that it can and will be the same for every individual with Apraxia.

I know for a fact that learning a foreign language can be a struggle for anyone, with or without a speech disorder.

But I also believe that it is a subject that is possible, but albeit difficult, to learn.

Now, about my adventures in learning a different language.

I am bilingual; fluent in English and Spanish. I've studied Spanish for 8 years in my education, throughout High School and I majored in it at Emory University. I lived in S…